My belated New Year resolution

Birkarnelzelzit Thiyam *

Therefore, I lived, therefore I smiled, therefore I loved, hence I now get the curtain to roll up and look into the realm of the new beginning. Though I cried, though I at times lost the will, though I got weaker at times, though I hated a lot of mornings, though I hated the rain and never missed the sunshine, here I am drawn into the wilderness of what I call the looped beginning.

The ending of yesterday was just a second away from the new beginning of tomorrow — but the journey till the circular end was witnessed by the 12 strong months. Neither you nor me love to waste time beating around the bush — so, here we are leaving the crazy first paragraph — with a lot of resolutions taken over the shoulder for this year.

Ask me what have I resolved for myself? Hmmm! This time I have more of how I should be than to ask for what I want to happen in life. I have surrendered all wills and keys of happenings to the creator for I now only lean on the realities of the ugly processes.

The fruit that the unjudged tree bears is/was never like the soil or the water. So, just asking for what I want won't be the best of all ideas to get the resolutions checked.

To be a singer, learning how to gargle with warm water, learning how to ride or drive vehicles, learning how to have a good PR skill, learning how to speak and write English, learning how to have a good fmancial management, learning how to be a great fashionista would surely help you in the long run.

But nothing seems to be a thing that would ignite that amazing voice. So, to get what we want in life — at times we need to work on a lot of unrelated things, we need to feed our soul to look sideways for a lot of extras.

So, now, this year — all that I am asking for is to have an open mind and an unlocked heart to throw myself away from my mainstream leading to just what I want to be by learning a lot more that will surely fabricate my bearing to lessen the frictions that might border and bother me in the `nexts' to come.

And to all my readers, what I am wording out today might be something you might have heard or read of but trust me — knowing what's needed to a great man and doing what's needed plays on two sides of the river. Practically, in a few weeks — the third wave will again 'slow to stop' the functions around.

Yes — it ain't just a forced holiday, it bears depression and thus a lot of stress, resolutions taken on 1st JAN will meet a lot of questions but trust me on what I projected earlier. Try to work on yourself rather than on what's happening off the grid. As I said for this year, "this time I have more of how I should be than to ask for what I want to happen in life."

If you don't really have a strong resolution of how you should be — a lot of pressures from outside will break you. We are now all a part of a pandemic that will be heavily paged in the history of mankind that will trigger fear to a lot who recall.

I won't really cry for the unknown but nurture my capabilities to change the wheel of my mind to be stronger than last year. I will learn from the stories of how external cries can hurt the voice of strength from within.

This should be the year for all to understand the strength of inner-callings, and never let the noises from the third wave crumble your piled-up resolutions.