Into The Silence (Ode To A Father)
Czadanda Saint *
It is hard to believe
This is the same place I sat
A few weeks ago
Everything around is much the same
But it seem like a million years already
You already seem a thousand miles away
Far, far away from the reaches of any mortal
So far away you went on that dark, dark night
That like the silence of the night
You became the silent memory of my life.
When ethereal beauty merged with ethereal charm
The wisdom becomes much simpler.
When the beauty of life
Merged with the charm of death
The truth of our existence lay open before our eyes
Only time passes by, leaving its shadow in the memory
Man passes away, leaving his memory in the shadow
Once, I tried to hold onto the passing time
But all I got to hold were the memories
And memories would not die
No matter how hard I try.
So what can I do now?
When I can do nothing
But to draw sketches from those memories
Obscured by the lines of conscience
The lines which never were there
The glory days of sunshine
Of those days in the setting sun
Those times, which are now gone forever.
The days, which once were
The memories, which once were yours.
But time can't change what things used to be
Whatever it was,
It remains in the memory
In the twilight zone
Of the never-beginning and the never-end.
Maybe, this was what you meant all along
From behind the shadows of your solitude
To remember you for who you were
And not for who you became
Before fancy became your playmate.
And you made that foray into the darkness.
Holding nothing but the thin air
You tightened your grip
And there was no nothing anymore
Beautiful voices, beautiful silence
Echoes from the nothingness
Whispering the memories of solitude
Words of wisdom
Mingled with pangs of despair
Death, a celebration of life
And you became blessed again.
Happiness is an illusion
But it is an illusion for which we lived for
Life is a myriad of charms
A voyage bound for nowhere
A journey to go beyond the realms of infinity
Where existence has no governance
And it is where you continue to live on
Along the trail
Selfless as you forever are
Fading silently away
Into the silence….
(2nd June 2007, Saturday)
* Poem written by Czadanda Saint for e-pao.net
The poet can be contacted at saddanskhaibam(at)gmail(dot)com
This poem was webcasted on April 04 2015.
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