Attitude

Dr. Nunglekpam Premi Devi *

Always I do, as always I did,
I stand aloof silently, cool and calmly;
I love the way, I was and I am and I use to,
On one seems understand 'me' and desire motifs;
Understanding far left behind; some seems awkward,
Some seems hopeless; friends with foe, surprisingly!
Left out alone nowhere; sitting, standing and waiting;
Come closer no body, alone I draw my path;
I choose not, stay 'away', nor I design living,
My 'moves' an 'attitude' too biased;
My 'looks' an 'attitude' dull and boring and wicked;
What may comes, which may goes, I intrude lesser;
Neither I seek the truth; I may be dismay,
Numbers countless, wandering hither and thither;
Should I? Should I not? Silently I do concern.
I pray enough dutifully; healthy and wise
I suggest staying happy and join 'them' loudly;
I smile for a cause; and I laugh bitterness, just as I do
Morning's a friend, smooth and serene, I witness much;
I think not a cause and not for a cause; silently as I stay,
I cried no bloody; No vicious I choose to friend;
Help me not merrily; Held me not harshly; I bray
Understanding! 'They' took away from me,
My 'gestures' an 'attitude' motionless and mindful;
Lone I walk, distant as I go, I carry 'attitude;
Swinging all my way, I pursue dreams living high;
I bother not any, friends and family,
Still, they doubt 'me' in, I have 'attitude' silently.
Asking myself hundreds and thousands,
Lesser the words, I speak of humanity's kindness;
'They' knows me little effortless, I doubt all egos,
What makes 'them' so? I know nothing,
How carefree I am? Wrap within those solitude;
Seclusion! I know some; still I company all peace,
'Think' all I could, walking through the rhythm
Judging onto, fancying and engaging I go wildly;
Lie! Lie 'me' not to; I hate the worse
I see friendship and all a lot best friends,
My 'No' to an 'attitude' simply,
My 'yes' to an 'attitude' so daring unfair;
Have I touch them sharing? Crazy I go unpopular;
Freaking out sadly I console 'me' soothingly,
How may? What may I be? I have 'attitude' silently