My feelings of 2020

Bretina Rajkumari *

It was one of the days in mid-November, chilly winds had started patrolling and the days were getting shorter. I was just enjoying the silence of the beautiful night sky thinking of how fast time flies.

With no invitation, I was suddenly lost in the ocean of anxiousness. The lights were out in my house as I was sitting outside on the stairs.

At times like that, I love watching the sparkly starry night sky and thinking about every meaningful tiny possibility. And I also like to watch the Moon shining brightest alone in the starry night; Oh! What a relaxing sight!

And again, sadness comes to me thinking of our current situation even though there are no more lockdowns now, I still feel sad thinking about the troubles that we have been through.

Moreover, we weren’t able to celebrate our festivals as we usually do, due to the COVID-19 pandemic. Isn’t it painfully sad ? This had taken away many things from us including our happiness.

The COVID-19 pandemic is one of the greatest nightmares ever faced by human beings of this generation. I feel sad and anxious at the same time. Every Nation during this pandemic is suffering; whether rich or poor, whosoever or wherever they are. People are facing many problems and difficulties in every field of work.

So, I’m just going to express some of my feelings about this pandemic and how I get through all my tiny difficulties and boredoms. It has been almost a year since my physical school life is badly affected by this situation.

With all these frustrations over my shoulders, I fail to control myself from yelling this at times, “When will this pandemic ever end!” and my Mother never fails to support me with her weirdest sarcasm, “Not too soon.”

As a student it was hard for me to spend good times during this period. But anyhow I managed to make up some enjoyable things to do with my family besides studies. I have never really been close with my family but now because of this jailing time at home, I am learning how to pay close attention to the smallest of the smallest details in the house.

It’s really wonderful to see how detailed the Mothers have to be to keep home making at its finest.

In the old days, about two years ago, the year before the pandemic broke out, happy stories seemed to be all over the years. Less male brains seem to care about how hard it is to keep up with the home making process, most of them seem to be stuck in their workplace.

Then, the pandemic struck – people thereafter were showered with more family time, displayed more family time to get closer to more details in the family like it did to me. It’s really a blessing in disguise.

Well ! Corona seems to turn out as a family fixer. No one enjoys being alone for a long time, sometimes it's suffocating like getting chained alone in an empty room. It’s hard to not be lonely when we are alone and again it's worse to feel lonely where we are with others.

Lately, I realized how this feeling can be eradicated – just a hug from mother, just a smile from brother and just a joke from father can kill all the loneliness.

Well! You know until it troubles you, so – yes, it was another big lesson for me from the pandemic. Families and friends are one single antiloneliness killing medicine.

Lastly, regardless of all the abstract and concrete problems, we must stay happy, entertainment is always everywhere – find ways to entertain yourself. Jokes are subjective – find ways to create comedy in your interest. Not to forget – health is wealth, follow all the precautions and safety measures.

Another article, another call for you all, “How is this pandemic going on for you all?”