I earn for 3 mouths and my dream, just enough to create an extra space between my earnings and my spending. I considered the space a warranty for my confidence in me but still don’t consider it enough to build a dream around it.

“Dream”, I called it a dream because it is driven by an emotion and a likeness. The real side of this likeness is yet to be supported by something called believe.

“You don’t know and I think it would be hard for us to completely understand the concept of how things work in an advance society like those of Delhi”.

I had nodded with agreement when a friend of mine said this. The base upon which the statement was made happens to be a week study tour in Delhi. This was 9 years back.

I have completed my eight years in Delhi yesterday and these eight years has made things easier for me to understand myself better. I am talking about 2920 days of hard work and nostalgia, which went unattended by the emotional side of me.

Things were tough with various tastes of success and failure hitting you left and right yet the concept of survival has its own energy to heal the bitter taste; this is how I came out of the test.

The system where I am now is a perpetual system with is own evolutionary characteristic of gaming on smart and innovative ideas.

You have number games, relationship games, buying games, selling games, loosing games, wining games and all this games are sub games of a bigger game which leads you to a ladder.

The best part and the worst part of this games is you have rules which you should follow yet you follow in such a way that you don’t follow it like other follow the rules. This is what they call as “Business world”.

I had knowingly or unknowingly entered this system to check if a 20 years old boy who has the following quality can survive in a place like Delhi.

1. He was born and brought up in a remote place of Manipur

2. Not very good in education

3. Financially hole in the pocket (beat the hot sharing cold drink with his Brother).

4. Has no proper aim in life

5. A very philosophical one who loves to talk about the world during lei bung phamba

6. Loves to read everything except books

7. Reads other minds a lot but never read his own mind.

8. Feel proud being a Manipuri and talks only about the rich culture of Meitei.

The test was suppose to be only for a few months but those few months has taken him further to years with every additional year adding restlessness of being away from Manipur.

The joy of learning, the excitement of getting new opportunity and above all the confidence of winning in a medium completely different than Manipur has created a lot of patience in suppressing the emotional backed objective of going back to Manipur.

However, I also know that I can’t carry two Conflicting objectives for long. I had started working on creating a space for myself in Manipur like I did 8 years back; the only difference is that I am not trying things out this time. I have a lot of believe but not strong enough to create an expectation out of it.

Do you believe in investing a lifetime earned security? I believe in it. Do you still believe in it if your lifetime earned security investment stands at 1/10 of the total required investment?

I still believe in it. Do you believe that you would be able to get 9/10 of the investment from investor? Yes I do. Do you believe in your capabilities of running the business? Yes I do. Do you have a reliable source of business with business flow continuity assurance? Yes.

Do you believe Manipur as a medium to run your business? Yes.
Do you believe that you would have no problem getting into a “percentage” system to protect your business? Yes I do.
Do you believe that you would only be asked to give out a reasonable percentage of your profit? NO.
Do you believe that a business could run with fatal threats? NO.
In such a case do you still believe that you could guard the 9/10 of the principle investment? NO.
Most Important do you believe you can put a disaster recovery plan in place? NO.
Do you feel that you could risk yourself and other investment with 4 Nos? I don’t know.

What would you advise me in such a case? My email id is [email protected]