Cant say I've done much things in my life....because I am always alone

Maria Sheikh *

Watching the sunset....
Lying on my bed....
Sitting in my lawn
Feeling the air tickle my hair
Can not say I've done many things in my life....
Because I am always alone.
Not a very exciting person..
And cant say I have too many friends that are true to me.

Deep in my heart I want something that fulfill me, something which has ability to make me grow and feel alive. Its like Alice in wonderland who want to see the world with rose spectacle.

Well, what are you?" said the Pigeon. "I can see you're trying to invent something!" "I-I'm a little girl," said Alice, rather doubtfully.

She found herself at last in a beautiful garden, among the bright flower-beds and the cool fountains.

This is due to a feminine mystique that clouds over making pretty ,demure helpless creature ,or due to, female brain tends to be a barometer of every social interaction that" I become too fat " . "It start showing a red alert when we get a negative feedback, or is not matching our expectation and self esteem tends to dip down .

It tries to create a sense of doubt and being without worth. We women are gifted of an ability to nurture, to love, have deep compassion and empathy . "Sometimes she scolded herself so severely as to bring tears to her eyes' - Alice in Wonderland

I met a woman she is advocating that men always have the chauvinistic bias that leads them to think that the women depends on them for a sense of identity social, emotional and of physical validation. Men are responsible for making hell out of women's life.

In her so called Independent personality I found that sometimes that frigid independent personality or sophistication is a cloak of protection worn to hide from this rough world which can hurt a soft heart.

The hardest lesson that I have learn is to overcome the timidity and a sense of doubt that if fears go deep then a deep depression sets in. Started feeling lonely, but there arise a discovery of Me

I wanna show me to this world.....
No self respect has gone.......
In this M world......I am someone.....
But silence is a part of me.....
I am nothing but
the thing that describes the word-ME!