May be the nostalgia was another source to keep him close his departed one over the phone but it was affordable only in the beginning and he is convinced that something has got to be done to break the monotonous solitary confinement.
The solution is yet to come and if you are very resolute then it is enjoyable for which you don't have to bet and plot any conspiracy or bribe the lord at home who is the cousin of the lord here. Mister Reluctant was around and holding him back from any nasty engagement.
The passion and the desire in him can wane the magic wand of mister Reluctance. Finally the magic wand is broken so does the spell that has bound him for long.
He is free to go and savor and devour what he wishes and the unfriendly nostalgia won't follow him any longer , seems like that is a deal agreeably made between them, moreover that it is supposed to be a secret and not a single relevant word is not supposed to seep through the tight door they have just put up.
The beginning of glorification of Anglicization as well as subjugation of the willing -spirits to the lord should be achieved at any cost.
The reluctant fellow is down there signaling him that all he is going to do will be consequential but sometimes for the sake of bliss and eternal elation we tend to sodomize the beauty of others is supposedly taken for granted considering the teaching we had - before you learn how to the phrase-I love you___ you have to learn how to say the world letter I.
Yes, there is ethic but it is another idea standing on one limping leg vying to justify and demystify what has already been proved inappropriate for this comfy world. May be in the beginning it a shocker but a trance in the eventual stage.
Creatures in the world like him goes through although one has to put up with it in the initial stage the subsequent part will consume you and try to embed in its presentable fashion.
Off you go dear swallows by this horrendous temptation utterly betraying the softy you have left at home across the seas not to be returned and never to consider what that softy in the land of smile would commit and feel if ever told her the truth.
Yet that truth is not to be told as honesty is a different thing. Your interpretation of that hackneyed word is done according to your discretion. Like you we all have the liberty to construe anything according to our discretion forgetting the validity of its approach and ignoring the consequences of that sneaky and rueful conducts.
She is not done yet.
Still living on a bogus dream constructed on lust and desperation without noticing the undisclosed utter betrayal that has already taken place. She is not suspicious of anyone or anything around that is not how she was brought up.
The dream that was hatched before he left is still a dream without any trace of doubts. The sporadic was excusable as the explanation given was financial it was assumed to be understandable.
That is understood keeping in mind that we are strugglers striving pursuing to catch up what was missed out by out ancestors among those who slaughtered human to enhance their commercial world.
Everything is pardonable and forgettable as long as you have enough dough the day you run out of that sneaky merciless dough you are gone. He has learned that and already started experimenting with people around.
It has been a great success; everyone is experimented except for the person who is miles away from where he has learned that most practical stuff. He wishes he could try that on her too.
He is not too far away from the common understanding especially the unreachable distant land, which is again not that far if you can hold your heart with a deep breath you could be transported in a split of second. Well, that is another infeasible invisibility and abstract feeling in these rush hours.
Days pass by with little communication but the conviction in her convinces that he is there and the return of her prince is guaranteed, though there is no printed or written paper. The days on the other side of the world has passed by with remorse at the same time attempting every trick to betray the remorse.
How can you move on in life when your heart is engulfed with hindsight? Don't feel it if you can even if you can't you got to do it like how resolved to leave her behind.
By now he is very resolute and astute with the rules and life has conferred him with accolades for the rueful and sneaky things he has accomplished. Who is he to refuse that award?
When you are caught up by rare opportunity as recognition of your regretful incidences, which you have successfully stabbed to death, then you ought to be happy.
She is erased from his list with one flinch of his sharp mind, like erasing a word from the paper with the stroke of one's hand by using a smelly rubber.
to be continued...
* N. Bobo Meitei contributes to e-pao.net regularly.
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This article was webcasted on January 27th 2007.
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